Confusing~Sad~Dark!

Many people ask me 4get him(HUI)~Even is my best friends too and others.I told them that I can't do that what had they ask me 2 4get.They still told me..would he come back to you again even is ask him come back to the hometown and accompany me??As they ask the question about that,It's making me more confused n feel more sad even is pain in my heart.I know they do care and worry about me.But,I still can't do that~because I still loving him.Once I try 2 4gt him,it's make me sick in my heart and my mind even is my whole body also will get into sick too.I really HATE myself and my whole Life.I always wishing that I quickly DIE and reborn again.Start new life again!Now my life really suck with those unused pain..it's always make me pain and hurt as deep as a knife stab my heart chin.When I saw another partners were so lovely,their movement remind me of our sweet memories and from started there..my heart start hurt and hurt till I can't breath.Feel wanna Die chin~!When along the way that ever had our memories,I started crying...from there 2 here.At d 1st,Our memories make me feel happiness..but after d end,our sweet memories make me feel pain and pain enough!I damn really don't know how 2 4get all those unused pain!Everybody don't know about my real secret yet!4 them,I was a bad girl..naked~!But,in truth I'm not kinda!I hard to fall in love with other guy even is believed!My believe in guy was over d end!I can't trust those all guys anymore even they're good guy.Cz i started HATE GUY!!!!!Not only GUY,even is a GIRLs that don't like me or wanna betray me!!!I HATE those people!!!From started rite now,I wanna b bad as much as I can!!!The BAD that I mean so..not a NAKED!!But a BAD that I can KILL people that betray me!!!!!!!!!!!Wanna let them know How pain in my life when They betray me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Wanna let them FEEL the Feeling!!!!I HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!In my LIFE containing of HATE!!!!!!!DARKNESS!!!!!DARK in my LIFE!!!!DARK KILLER!!!

SIM CHIN HUI

我很想你。。每一天都想着你。虽然我们已经不是情侣了，但是我还很爱你。我舍不得。。分开。我心好痛好痛。。。。。。。。辉，我还是很爱你。。我真的很爱你。我每一天都想起我们的回忆。。让我很痛苦！！！呜呜呜呜呜呜呜呜呜~太想你而病倒。。你懂不懂呀？！！！

Y???

为什么男人把女人的幸福当作是性福？搞不明白这些男人！！一直想毁掉女人的人生中的幸福！如果只是想要的是“性”，就不要打扰女人的最大梦想的幸福，免得让我们做女人的受伤害,让我们很恨你们男人。要“性”就去找“鸭”。。女人不是你们所想中的那么好欺负！忍到了女人的脾气，你们就没好过！女人可不是你们想象中的玩具！恨死男人！

Haizz..

What a boring day that I have!Sometime busy thinking something else that not true even is when I thinking back..KNS!Make me stress jor..hate!!What am I thinking about?!!Suck!!Omg!!Still left a few months..then my big problem comes into my head rite now!!Making me stress jor..and headache!!Oh my God!!SPM exam!!!!!!It's important,dude!!Once fail it!!!My future will drop into the darkness!!!!Oh My!!!!I need to prepare rite now!!If not....I will die chin!!!!Argghhhhhh!!!!I need help rite now!!!!I don't think anythings or others thing else!!!It's making me feel more stress!!!Arghhh!!!!!I need b hardworking rite now!!!!!Hope all the best in my exam!!!May God blessing me!!AMEN!!!

Sadxx..

Jz now he called me at around 1.45pm....I'm sad.He told me that everythings is over!I just want to forget everythings!!I hope 4gt it as fast as I can!!It's make my life suck with those unused painful feel!!I Hate it!!

Don't worry...

My ex-beloved(Sim Chin Hui),don't worry about me...I know our love could not stay until d end.But,I will tried 2 4get you in my mind and my whole life too.I just know U're now really hating me as deep as U can.I don't mind about it cz I knw everythings is my fault and it's not your fault.Unfortunately,I really love you as deep inside my heart.Hopefully,I really don't losing you in my life.My life such as was sucking in the darkness without you.I really need you by my side.However,You couldn't 4give me and started hating me as much!My beloved,I can feel that you're still loving me..as long or as deep as you hating me..I knew that you're pain in your heart!You never realized that unlucky happened 2 us.But,please..remember what I'd say..stay calm in your life,hope you happiness 4ever!I knew that I can't live no longer as much as other people.I know I will die in someday..I will die in happily as long as you live happiness with your new life.I will always praying 4 you,my beloved.As long as I live,I can't calm with my disease..It's hard 2 breath and~I always thinking of U..I always pray 4 GOD 2 blessing U in all the time when I still alive until I die.Although U didn't believe in me anymore,but b4 8 my last breath........I want 2 tell U..my beloved Sim Chin Hui,I always loving with all of my heart and my life in 4ever!

Finally..

Finally,everythings is gone in my life.All I want..is gone ady.He nvr 4give me....!!Altho i begging with him,he say everything me and him is over d end.He say he dn wan me 5 him anymore.I damn sad 2 heard it!!Everythings is really GONE!!!my happiness..my love..my wish and so on are GONE!!!!I HATE my life!!!!Hate it!!