不懂如何地解释

本人的故事开始。

我的婚姻没有亲朋好友的祝福,也没办特别求婚与婚宴,就。。只不过签名注册罢了。我们为什么会注册签名?
原因是我已经怀孕了,又遇到经济上问题而牺牲了穿婚纱的机会和拍婚纱照。原本怀孕前有个打算在那一年结婚,后来奇迹出现了而牺牲了我所一望的愿望。现在孩子都要对岁了,而我们还没去拍婚纱込照,
连聘金都没给。更何况我孩子的费用都是我家人还钱买的。我幸福不幸福不知如何说。
最不愉快的,他可以在我怀孕期间跟朋友出去,我不快乐有烦恼中要他带我去散散步,他却应我改天才带我。反而他朋友一通电话打来说心情烦就立刻要开车走,而留我在他自己家。(让我不快乐的是他可以把他朋友放在第一眼过我)我是他老婆,而不是其人。
第二次,
就在我孩子发高烧时,他可以丢下我们在家。打给他立刻回家带儿子去看病,他才回家。从医院后放我们回家,他自己驾车出去找他朋友到凌晨5点多才宁肯回家。
我好气自己为何会对这种人死心踏地。。反而最后对待我这样子。
这两件事往往都记在心里,无法忘记。

saddddd movie always make me cry...

14/02/2015
是情人节。。每个人都在庆祝送花之类或带对方去餐厅过二人世界。而我本身过的是劳动节。没办法。。跟到一个不会主动又不会想的人在一起的后果。算了!麻木了。。有哪天他自己会主动的呢?要不是因为我的提醒,他才会做。我累了,麻木了 。可以说14/02/2015是我的受难日。。唉!

CNY is coming soon.

This year CNY I don't hace a mood to celebrate.Money not enough to huy my own cny clothes n do my hair..sienzz z...

不愉快

看了许多人和朋友的求婚与注册里,男方都会买花送给女生。简直是浪漫的。而我的却是没有的,一手空空和又要自己主动跟他说。说了还应回我说买来浪费钱。那种感觉根本都不是在注册或求婚的感受,而且我结婚过程简直太D卡了。摆喜酒搞婚礼举办或像其他人那样的举办都没有;结婚戒指还是用我们在一起的戒指。很悲哀啊!!!我要我的结婚过程并不是这样的!!!我真的好失望!!!而且婚姻里根本都过得不幸福愉快!我的心好痛好失望!!!!!!

如何是好??

人家朋友们都过了自己的21岁生日举办那么大的请吃。而我却永远的生日举办的小小。如今二十一岁的我已当了妈咪和人妻,也就是说我已踏入人生真正的第一阶段的楼梯。其实我目前所希望的却毁在自己的选择。。告诉自己:"没关系!如今有了儿子就重新来过地拼!"自己选的路,自己必须走完这条路途才是真正的成功之一!

心里话

我知道怀孕时期和产后对老公你胡理取闹。。原谅我的这么任性和我不成熟的地方。我了解我对你那样实在很痛苦。。虽然我没亲自开口对你说声对不起,对我来说心里好难受。因为我而让你受得辛苦和心痛。老公,请原谅我对你所伤的话。对不起!我并不是故意。。我是因为要你在我身边照顾我们。。对不起呀,老公!

Our newborn life..

Valentine day's...

已有三年的情人节了，彼此都是自己一个人度过。虽然很羡慕其他人，但还能够如何，只好接受事实。唯一能够做的只有在msn和老公度过。。虽然不能够像其他人那样送花的花，拥抱着，接吻，甜蜜的互动，但只好面对面谈情说爱。心里的确是很孤独寂寞，但我不怪。因为我明了自己想要的是什么。只要能够在每天快快乐乐地一起，那才是我人生最幸福的事。只要不吵架，那让我感到开心。

很痛苦地走着那些“关”。。

昨天我却做了不该做的事情！让许多人生气我~老公生气我，他表姐也生气我，他妈妈也生气了我，他外婆也生气了我，还有他的朋友也生气了我。我却没给他们脸。我跪着他们道个歉，但他们一个一个却理都不理，还叫我重新改过，给我做一个机会改掉我的脾气。就是因为我的坏脾气让他们生气我。老公却给我半年时间改过这个坏脾气。我要慢慢地改过！虽然很痛苦，我还是要改。因为老公说过，如果办不到，他就会离开我。T^T

我要的不是你的生气来挨骂我！

当我魂散落魄的时候，我伤心了，失望了，哭了~需要的是你。不是你来挨骂我，生气我！要的只不过是个安慰与拥抱着我！我知道你不喜欢我哭，可是我忍无可忍啊！我也不想让你看到我哭泣的模样！

Our sweet memories.

Confuse with my JOURNEY!T_T

Everybody want me go to STUDY including him too!!!!About the Asian Nursing Scholarship,I miss the chance because of my original Birth Certificate have lost and they want 2 sureties for my study..at d end,I can't find 2 person for being my sureties of my study in Singapore.I feel so disappointed and sad with what I have faced!That's my interest!My wish is wishing go to Singapore for STUDY but 8 d end,all r already GONE infront of my eyes!I have told hubby that I don't want study anymore!!!He angry me that I don't want study!I have told him that I will working in Singapore that my colleague have promoted me her last company b4 she came bck to Kuching!Now I damn feel so SAD!!!I don't know what I should do right now!!When I think of the job in Singapore,I feel confuse either wanna go or not.About the study,I stress with it!!!Oh GOD!!What I should do right now?!?!

My photo shooting..

OMG!

Damn tiring with this job chin..the officer keep yelled at us while forcing us do the documents in 1 day..but damn it's too many job..

Happy with my husband.mmuackks

I'm happy and happy when think of my husband.Hahaha~well,from the starting I dn know how to explain at here..anyway,When my hubby call me or msg me,I'm feeling nice and feel so HAPPY and...HAPPINESS.When I think of him,I will smilling at the sometime during I work or doing sth else in house that kinda bored like watch news or listen to a music.Hahaha~In my eyes,other guys that try to make an attention in front of me or from my behind..Ah HUh!I'm not interesting with them so much..Just only he the one who always appear in my eyes and my mind.No matter wherever he gone or work,he's the one who always make me feel HAPPY and HAPPINESS.Lao gong,I love you so much!I'm always love you forever in my life!Mmmuacksss

Don't know why...

Don't why I feel so tired in this few days..Whatever I try 2 gt early go to bed 4 a sleep but then next morning when I wake up,DAMn TIRED!I miss my Hubby so much..T^TMiss him so much!!!Arghhhh!!!!!Gonna' be continue my study in U!!OMG!!!That's starting to be more busy cz that time might b got alot of assignment 2 do so!DAMN!Hence,need to think it by myself!!Ouch!!!!That's more TIRED and Stress enough,dude!But everyone're supporting me continue my study.My husband(Sim Chin Fui) also support me too!I'm not be willing part with him~T^T!I wanna cry..Study in 5 years..OMG!That's damn long 4 me..But I'll waiting 4 my hubby^^

I'll always waiting!!!

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